Trying To Get Past The Past

The past wont let you move,
You try to dance with potential but it seems to have its own groove.
Your feelings have become numb due to the pain,
Sunny days come and go but you seem to always remember the rain.
The higher you go, the mountain gets steeper,
The more you think, the hurt gets deeper.
Your awkward social life becomes hard for others to cope with,
Your selfishness leaves you alone to bond with.
Your heart beats rapidly when making tough decisions,
Palms sweaty, legs shaking, and you don’t know who to listen out of all the voices.
The woman you adore you feel wont understand,
Like the others she will leave and find a simpler man.
Your head throbs when deciding the next step,
You being scared of life is a secret very well kept.
Because you boost and brag to hide your fears,
You wear dark shades in the night to hide your tears.
You walk amongst friends has if they were your enemies,
You seem distant around love ones as if there is no chemistry.
Due to a set back you doubt your ability to progress,
You say you don’t worry but your eyes say your stressed,
You break down when your all alone,
When all you really want is to go home.
Your past haunts you, your present deceives you,
Ian wake up, tomorrow is a new you.