Love Don't Love Me Back

Love….???!!! Powerful term. Some say we use it to loosely, while some say we don’t use it enough. But have you ever felt, what you love does not love you back?? You put your heart on the line yet it gave you nothing in return. It just confuses me that if “what you put in you get out,” then why do we not get our “return on investment”. I don’t get it. I figured I would avoid love as much as possible because love is pain and pain…I rather not have. Some would say I’m to harsh and to cold. But could you blame me?? I am speaking from a perspective of someone who has lost everything I have ever loved from friends to family to dreams. Does that mean I must still try to find love or will it ever find me? Because as of right now I rather it not come my way. I was not aware that love was suppose to be painful. I thought your enemies bring you that not love. I don’t expect people to share my same perspective, however think about what you have loved and lost and ask yourselves “did Love, Love me back?” I applaud anyone who still believes and works towards finding love. I just don’t know if its worth it…

Everything I have ever loved I’ve lost,
Tying to get to happiness, I’m paying a hell of a cost.
I have cried, bleed, and breathed pain,
It’s building up and I think I’m going insane.
Where is the love?
The lack there of is holding me to where I can’t rise above.
I loved basketball,
But yet high school through college the coaches made the wrong call.
I had love for Chris,
But he was murdered, instead of a gun he only had his fist
I had love for Cam,
But he got jealous and turned on me…DAMN.
I loved being “Mr. Popular”, I loved the spotlight,
But they turned off my light, and left me in the night..
I loved my mother and father,
They were taken away due to murder.
I had love for my city,
But when my parents died, you posed for the cameras and showed fake pity.
I have love for my family,
But sometimes I get the feeling my family don’t love me.
Love…just leave me be,
You have already left me with nothing cant you see.
I hit my knees screaming LOVE??? Where is mine??
Do you love me?? If not…FINE!!
Runaway love and never come back,
Because when I love you, you never love me back.