2nd Year Anniversary

Two years ago today, my parents passed away. It was the worst day of my life. Couldn’t tell you how I made it this far, nor could I tell you honestly how I fell about it. I have mixed emotions about their passing. I don’t know weather to be angry or sad, yet at the end of the day I would give everything I have to get them back. You never really understand what someone means to you until they are no longer there. The protection, the love, the comfort, the shield from the outside world that they provided was something I took for granted. Now I face it everyday fighting tooth and nail just to make it to tomorrow. Today is the anniversary of not only when my parents were taken HOME, but when my whole life changed. To this day I still cant believe I am living here without them. If you are reading this and your next to someone you love, hug them, kiss them, and tell them you love them. Trust me you are going to wish you would have when they are gone…

Two years ago today, God called two of his angles home,
However two years ago today, God left me all alone.
I remember getting the call and hitting my knees asking why,
I lost all my faith, I just stared and cursed the sky.
My heart dropped while my body got cold,
I couldn’t give up because I promised my father I wouldn’t fold.
I did not even get to hug them or get one last kiss,
Words can’t describe how you are missed.
I fight day and night trying to be strong,
But because of this day, sometimes I don’t think I can last long.
Nightmares become the usual while dreams seem so farfetched,
I try to grab on to peace but its something I cant seem to catch.
The pressure to carry the name they built gets heavy and my legs become weak,
I cant quit because there is no room for the weak.
The nights that were once warm with their presence become cold with them away,
No matter how much I bundle up, the warmth diminishes day by day.
Today I wont cry tears of pain,
Although with you gone the sun does not shine the same due to the rain.
Today we celebrate the time we spent together,
Like they say good things don’t last forever.
Two years ago today you left me all alone,
However, today two years ago I celebrate you going HOME.