Lost Love

Most of us, if not all, have been in that one relationship that we did not give our full 50% of the deal. We made promises that we did not keep, we made excuses for things that were not excusable, we lied just to save face, yet after all that, that person still was there. Until one day they were fed up and left. We took them for granted because we felt they will always be there. We did just enough to get by. You don’t call them everyday but just enough so they can somewhat tell your still interested. That kind of thing. I’m a prime example. I lost someone that I thought would never leave. I had that “You aint gonna leave, where you gonna go?” mentality. Now when we date people do you notice that in some way you try to compare them with your lost love?? Strange isn’t? Especially when one of them starts to do something that reminds you of the one you lost. OHH MY GOD!! Ladies and Gentleman, don’t take what you have for granted because one day they will leave and you are going to wish you gave your full 50% of the deal.

I want to start off by saying I apologize,
You gave me your all, but I did not provide.
It was hard for me to be who you wanted me to be,
I remember being speechless when you said you no longer loved me.
I remember I promised to never leave your side,
Instead of tell you I wasn’t ready, I lied.
I told you if you gave me your love I would never leave you,
You gave me your heart and I did not know what to do.
I swear on a stack of bibles I want you back,
But I know your heart couldn’t take that.
My bed is cold without your presence,
I feel like I need you and time is of the essence.
I want to see that smile that brighten the darkest day,
I want to feel you touch that made December feel like May.
I used to blush when you told me, “My heart is yours”,
I abused it and now sadness is coming through my pores.
I remember when you held me tight when I wanted to fold,
You even took my hand and help me carry the load.
I took for granted what I had,
If I could just feel your touch or hear your voice I would be glad,
I would give up everything to hold you again,
Until then here is my heart…listen to it through this pen.