Slow Down

I need to slow down,
I’m spending everything yet my soul has yet to be found.
I have driven my life in the wrong lane,
The same lane a year ago I thought was insane.
I’m spending it all to have a good time,
Everybody is shining so I’m just trying to get mine.
I hide behind the bottles,
Because I realize I’m not a great role model.
I seek help behind expensive clothes,
Because of the ridicule I received…only Lord knows.
I take trips to try and stay high,
But in reality I’m barley getting by.
They say you only live once so live it up,
But me living it up, will soon lead to my time being up.
I want this so bad,
But yet I know this is unhealthy, and its sad.
What happen to me?
What happen to the man I wanted to be?
What happen to my sanity?
I’m switching lanes dangerously.
I know the fun times don’t last forever,
But I’m in the wrong lane I need to get it together.
My foot is on the pedal and I’m going nowhere fast,
At this rate I‘m not going to be able to make it last.
This life is not for me,
Somebody lend me a hand and please save me.