Finding My Way

They say the eyes never lie,
So when looking at me, is it obvious that I’m living to die?
My body gets warm when the cold breeze passes through,
I have come to a fork in my life and I don’t know what to do.
The priest said that God has a plan,
But why is suffering in my plan, unless I don’t understand.
How will I stand on my own,
How will my family love me when I rather be alone?
When will I see the sign from God that I am on the right track,
When will I be able to finally walk forward without looking back?
I don’t mean to complain or be a burden,
Not many things are for sure, but me being lost is for certain.
I feel helpless, I feel I’m just another lost soul,
It feels I was left alone in the cold.
The pain shifts from hurt to indecisive decision making,
Which is the product of no guidance, and as a result I just begin taking.
Taking upon a life that is not for me,
A life that will turn me into something I did not plan to be..
I need to find my way fast,
Living this indecisive life will turn the present into my past.
I need to find my way,
I will sacrifice it all, just don’t let me live in dismay. .